I like to entitle my new series of blogs “Open Letters” because I want to be as honest to the world as possible. Recently, more people have viewed my blog. As I have said before, the numbers of views do not matter to me. It is those of you who continue to read my blog that inspire me to continue blogging. Without your support and your inspiration, I would not have the courage to share my journey. However, a part of me will always be saddened by the number of people who also suffer alongside me. I wish that our shared courage, love, and support for one another would be enough to end all of our sufferings. Nonetheless, it is that #endowarrior support that will continue to push us to live our lives to the best of our abilities.
Honestly, this week has been a real mental and physical battle for me. I have struggled to socialize, to leave my house, to complete my work, and to ignore the pain. There were several days where I did celebrate The Little Things In Life, but overall it was a rough week. As I wrote in Assumptions and Misconceptions, it is not that I have been depressed, it is simply that I did not have the energy to do any of the above. This disease takes a toll on my body and my mentality. It makes me curl up with a heating pad on its highest setting and stay in bed all day.
Every time I have adeno and endo pain, I return to the internet for solutions. There’s always the hope that someone has discovered something new in the past few days. Even though this is an unrealistic idea, I can’t help but scroll the internet for answers. I continuously look for new trails, doctors, clinics, and pain management suggestions. As Myshellie suggested, I have also tried joining facebook groups in hopes of finding new insights.
In the past several months, I have joined Adenomyosis Fighters Support Group and Nancy’s Nook. Both of these groups provided me with new information and research, but still, I am left with the same options. One positive thing about these groups is that I can read about the thousands of women who suffer as I do. And yet, in the end, a hysterectomy, an IUD, or birth control seem to be the only existing solutions. One would think that with thousands of women suffering, someone would discover reasonable solutions.
I have rewritten this blog post about ten times this week. This is because I have so many ideas, but no way to simplify them. I would like to write about the current solutions out there, about the media, about my personal journey, or about my findings. Would any of these topics interest you? Is there something else you would like to read about? Let me know your thoughts!